Gloomy sort of day, no energy to speak of after several days of being really "up" and John chose to roll in an hour and a half "late", claiming that the fact that he normally gets in at either 5 or 7 PM, depending on the day, doesn't mean that 8:30 is "late". I KNOW that if I act all shitty and irritated, beyond a certain point (that is, WAY before the point at which I stop FEELING shitty and irritated )HE will get a lot more shi. and irr. than I am, for much longer, and this is not a road that I really want to start down, for my own comfort.
This is because I called him at work yesterday, which is an hour's commute away, because he left the interior light on in my car Sunday night and the battery was DEADER THAN A DOORNAIL 24 hours later when I had to:
1) go pick up my teaching assistant who was waiting outside her school-right then, so I could
2) teach for 2 hours starting right after that , and then
3) go to my orchestra (that I play in), right after THAT, for a dress rehearsal,
with no car.
There was NO time to call AAA or see if the neighbour could boost me or anything, - I had the Mom of a student pick my assistant up, 25 minutes late-so he VOLUNTEERED to come home and "bail me out" (??????who left the light on?????), but then he punishes me by "making up the time tonight",(which is bullshit, as he is a professor and can work or not work at any hour of any day or night), because he knows I worry like crazy when he is late since it can be a really nasty commute sometimes. Did he call to say he'd be late? Or say "Gee I am sorry to have put you to so much trouble?"
Can you say "passive- aggressive?"
In the past we would be having a huge fight by now. I guess that faking that I have stopped feeling SH. and IRR. is progress although I hate the way it feels to just swallow it.
This is because I called him at work yesterday, which is an hour's commute away, because he left the interior light on in my car Sunday night and the battery was DEADER THAN A DOORNAIL 24 hours later when I had to:
1) go pick up my teaching assistant who was waiting outside her school-right then, so I could
2) teach for 2 hours starting right after that , and then
3) go to my orchestra (that I play in), right after THAT, for a dress rehearsal,
with no car.
There was NO time to call AAA or see if the neighbour could boost me or anything, - I had the Mom of a student pick my assistant up, 25 minutes late-so he VOLUNTEERED to come home and "bail me out" (??????who left the light on?????), but then he punishes me by "making up the time tonight",(which is bullshit, as he is a professor and can work or not work at any hour of any day or night), because he knows I worry like crazy when he is late since it can be a really nasty commute sometimes. Did he call to say he'd be late? Or say "Gee I am sorry to have put you to so much trouble?"
Can you say "passive- aggressive?"
In the past we would be having a huge fight by now. I guess that faking that I have stopped feeling SH. and IRR. is progress although I hate the way it feels to just swallow it.
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